I really wish it could have been different Dad. I wish the drink didn’t have so much power over you so we could have had more time together and made more memories with my babies. They adored you and I’m so glad I captured them times to look back at. So many things missed and words unsaid that I’m struggling to get out everything that’s in my head. I just hope your last few days with us all gave you peace and you knew how much we loved you. The only thing I can take from all this sadness is that you’re no longer suffering and unhappy. I hope you’re up there now with all our other angels smiling watching over us.
I love you Dad ♥️
Your Princess Gemma xxx
I grieve you now, but I grieved you then,
Long before this final end.
The man I knew, you slipped away,
A shadow lost to night and day.
The bottle stole the warmth you held,
Turned love to ashes, hope to hell.
I mourned you first in drunken haze,
When words were lost, and time betrayed.
Yet still, I hoped, I held you near,
While you were fading, year by year.
I watched you fade, but still I stayed,
Loving you in such a broken way.
The hurt was there, and still remains,
A heart that aches, a soul that strains.
Now in this silence, deep and wide,
I face the truth I can’t deny:
That all this pain was never new—
It lived with me and it lived in you.
Though you were gone long before tonight,
Love doesn’t leave, but pain takes flight.
I mourn you now, but I mourned before,
For the man I loved, the man I swore,
Would rise again, but never did.
A ghost I carried, and now I bid,
Goodbye to you, in this final sigh,
But know, in my heart, you never die.
For part of you, I lost today,
But part of you will always stay ♥️
Gemma Collins
07/02/2025